A Long Road to Recovery

About six months ago, I wrote a piece related to people-pleasing tendencies. I talked about how I had done self-reflection and was starting to understand why I was struggling with people-pleasing. I wrote that piece thinking that that was going to be the last time I’d talk about people-pleasing. Yet, here we are.

I’ve come to learn after spending an hour sobbing in bed, that I am still struggling with people-pleasing issues. It wasn’t a tendency or habit six months ago, it is a personality issue that has yet to be fully addressed, that’s wreaking chaos in my life.


Through all of this, personally, I've experienced a wave of emotions. I'm from Wisconsin, USA; We were one of the first states that took extreme measures to prevent the spread of the COVID-19 virus. At this point, everything is closed except for essential businesses such as hospitals, grocery stores, and some public transportation.

I've wondered how others are doing through all of this. How are others handling this pandemic and the state of quarantine?

I created a survey and shared it on social media. I got a huge wave of answers.

How has the COVID-19 pandemic and quarantine affected you?

"I am bored all day and my last track…

I have been asking myself this question a lot lately. When life doesn’t go my way, I not only have anxiety because I lack control over certain events or situations in life, but I also stress over not obtaining or succeeding the goals and expectations I’ve set for myself. In many cases, I’m afraid of failure.

I know I’m not the only one — Why is it that we tend to put so much emphasis on our goals and expectations that it becomes a make it or break it mentality?

If you haven’t already, I highly recommend you go take…

Here I am. Sitting on yet, another revelation, inspired by the external forces of talking with other humans (because having an external perspective is often imperative to instigate self-reflection).

Something I’ve battled my whole life is low self-confidence and wavering self-esteem. I’m cautious when new things come to play in my life because I question my abilities to handle them. …

When I realized that my relationship with my ex wasn’t working, I was devastated. I didn’t want to let go of all the time and energy I had invested in making the relationship work and deepening our connection over something as seemingly stupid as varying political beliefs and his inability to move beyond his broken self image and insecurities. But as time went on, his insecurities only seemed to worsen, and I had to acknowledge that a “good thing” had gone awry. We just weren’t compatible anymore.

Having that realization didn’t lead to action until several months later when I…

Ah, the world of social media. Our nightmare and best friend. We self-trained “social media gurus” and corporate marketing strategists preach about the endless possibilities with social media when it comes to our growing businesses and brands. But what we don’t talk about is how we ACTUALLY use social media effectively and how it will result in sales.

I’m here to ‘splain social media marketing without diving deep into algorithms. Let’s make it simple. Let’s give you a game plan for promoting your business or brand. I’m going to reveal all the trade secrets that will likely piss off your…

I know I’m not the only one, and I’m likely not the most extreme case. But what started out as a realization at the beginning of this week that I have a Savior complex — trying to fix everyone else’s problems and pouring my “love” and devotion into people like my own personal projects, to feed my addiction of feeling wanted and needed — I’ve discovered that my glaring personality flaw isn’t just a Savior complex, but it’s also a god complex.

It all started about a month ago, when I was rejected by this guy I thought I really…

In 2005, the MacArthur Foundation, a large, Chicago-based private foundation, put up 12 grants for a total of over $3.6 million dollars towards conservation efforts in the Eastern Himalayan region.

The Himalayas is one of the most remote mountain ranges in the world, home to over 240 million individuals. Thanks to climate change, temperatures have been rising, glaciers retreating and erratic weather patterns are occuring, disrupting once reliable water sources. The rich biodiversity and habitats to some rare species like the Red Panda are being threatened.

A call to advocacy and environmental conservation of the Himalayan region has over hundreds…

If news hadn’t hit you yet, more female filmmakers are breaking ground thanks to the efforts of companies like Refinery29, with films like Mr. Malcom’s List. Why is this important you ask?

A 2017 study reported that only 18% of women were working behind-the-scenes film jobs, 8% of them being in the top 100 Hollywood films. Since then, not much progress has been made on increasing those numbers. Many of us may feel unthreatened by this issue. However, such an imbalance of gender representation in an industry that produces and controls the content we see everyday, speaks to what…

Claire Laurel

A film student, writer and lover of plants, who praises Jesus and writes about her relationships too much.

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